私の生活はだんだんつまらなくなりました。仕事やお金があり友達がいますけど、幸せを感じることができません。たぶん私は恋人がいないので、彼女がほしいんでしょう。そして、ときどきいろいろな所で恋人同士を見ると、羨ましいです。大変ですよ。
4年前は、彼女がいなくても私の生活は楽しいし、面白いし、素晴らしかったです。でも4年前にも悪い思い出はあります。その年、私は好きな女の人がいて、彼女を本当に愛していましたけど、その人は私をひどく悲しませました。そのため私は元気じゃなくなって、心がいつもいたくて、そして時々泣いていました。その時、本当に死にたいと思いました。だから、じぶんに「恋の病はどうして私を選んだの？」と聞きました。
今までも、私はそのことで傷ついているんだと思います。最近新しく好きな女の人を見つけることができましたが私は怖がっています。私は前と同じように傷つきたくないからです。 みんな、私はどうしたらいいのでしょうか。
This week had been a “major major” shock in the Philippines. The hostage drama was a huge disappointment and it had caused great impacts on the economy, tourism, security, etc. All are pointing fingers to each other for who to blame. The police says its the media’s irresponsible journalism, the media says its the police’s incompetency, others also blame the president for his lack of action, while some blame the church as well. Well here’s what I think, what about we stop blaming each other and do the necessary actions that can clean this shameful event that occurred.
I am sadden that this event had happened and my condolences to the families of the victims. In behalf of the Filipinos, I would like to say sorry to the world for my countrymen’s behavior towards the said event. The photos you are about to see is shocking and I am not proud of these. In utmost disgust, I am desecrating these individuals who are staining the image of every Filipinos. Not all Filipinos are like these.. And to the people in the photos and specially the police.. TUMINO NAMAN KAYO.. BAON NA TAYO SA KAHIHIYAN.. WAG NYO NAMAN DAGDAGAN..
Can’t blame the HK nationals for hating us.. 
Here’s what i have written ages ago..
I think it deserves a spot here in my blog..
Here goes nothing..
how could it end up like this?
why does it have to be?
holding on to your evanescent friendship
wishing for just a faint of your smile
bet you could never be mine
how I’m just dying inside…
i could still remember yesterday
when the two of us used to laugh the world
but now the world laughs at me
i wonder if i could ever laugh again
i guess I’ll never know when
cause you’ve just buried me in oblivion
things had changed from better to bitter
aphonia overwhelms us apart
wish i could bring back before
what was us before…damn!
i was not looking for love when i met you
love found me at the other side of the road
then left me broken-hearted when i reached the fork
i knew I’d lost you then…damn!
how could it end up like this?
why does it have to be?
i used to be your good friend
now, I’m a nuisance at your perimeter
a contagious disease you’ve treated me
avoiding my presence you can’t linger
i don’t want to remember yesterday
when the two of us used to laugh the world
because the world still laughs at me
i wonder if i could ever laugh again
i guess I’ll never know when..
Nothing beats the sentimental heart with the tunes of classic melody. Sometimes, these classic hits are our best companions in our crying times, lurking-somewhere-in-the-corner times, midnight coffee times, comfort food times, and one times one equals two times.. yeah whatever!
Hmmm. I really don’t know what I have been eating lately but I just opened my laptop and searched for my fave classic on youtube. And I’m not emo today for crying out loud. And I’m not that old either. Well if there is comfort food then probably there’s comfort music right? And why should I need comfort when everything seemed so comfortable as of the moment? Naaah, don’t mind me.. my neurons are going loco again and it seems it haven’t found some reasoning yet, or perhaps it ran with the idiopathic flibbertigibbets a while ago.
Enough with curses.. albeit I am born in this era where pop and hip-hop dominate the music world, for me, nothing really compares to the immortality of the classic hits. Some may not like the old fashion tunes but these kind of music will not die down. That’s why they are called the Immortals. A blast from the past that is still blasting its way to the present.. and certainly in the future as well. Some of these songs are still in the charts now although sang by a different artist. Also, some hits had made its way to blockbuster movies like The Transformer’s Baby Come Back by the band, Player.
Anyway, here’s a list of my top 5 classics:
5. Simply Red’s So Not Over You
4. Restless Heart’s When She Cries
3. Baby Come Back by Player
2. Harem Scarem’s Honestly
1. and Patience by Guns n Roses
Well, check these songs for yourselves. I’m sure you’ll love the lyrics and the beat. If you want you can send parts of the lyrics as text messages to your significant other. The poetry inside the songs can move hearts of stone. 
And before I shoot the haystack, let me give you a hint on classic music. Don’t sing My way in front of an angry mob, you might get yourself killed.. hahaha =))
this is just a re-post from my other blog.. dated 2010/08/02
here goes nothing..
A pain struck your head minutes ago and still it throbs stingingly waking you up early dawn. The memory about last night’s flight was blissful but despite those cheers is a sad smile lurking behind a thick mask…
Every drop of alcohol and every beat of the sound sends a loadful of serotonin to your senses. And there you were enjoying the scene and cherishing the moment til the last drop and the last beat… Then its closing time…
True, having them was a fun and exciting ride. But fact remains that you can’t keep them for as long as you want. And at the end of the day you are left out alone in your room pondering about the day spent…thinking if tomorrow will be the same as today…
And realizations became superficial that however you hold things tightly, it will and really will slip out of your hands at some point. What is now today may not be the same as tomorrow or next week or next month or the coming years. Eventually all you have will leave you…and nothing is what it seemed or so you thought…
Just don’t adhere yourself to things, to people, or to your environment so much. So that when the time comes that they will depart from you, it will never be that melancholic. Your life is yours for the taking but what happened to the environment that surrounds you is way out of your control. So don’t get cleaved, not unless you’re masochist enough to handle the blows that may fall before you.
And thinking how is it so hard to live in this world is even harder than living it…
Apparently, these words are just nonsense so why the heck manifest from this page? Now go back to work and be productive as what you are designed to be…
As for me, i’ll be facing these same old shits that’s been screwing my life and how in the world you’re still reading this? Did i say BACK TO WORK!!! 
From Saturday’s badminton session, my legs became sore and walking or moving around seemed so hard. That’s the price of stopping from any physical activities for the past months and suddenly engaging to the most fat-burning sport. As if I did care how much fat would I lose then in this fat-forsaken body. Or do I have any to lose?.. Hahaha! Anyway, I felt like I really needed some good pampering for the whole week…
THE MASSAGE
A good leg massage was the one I was craving for. So last Tuesday, we went to Grand Royal Spa to have some relaxation. Luckily, the spa offered 20% discount because it’s a Tuesday and they offer discounts on body massage during these days. Anyway, the massage went good and my legs were more relaxed. I can feel that it was almost ready for the stress test that would happen on the next day.
WAKA WAKA
Dance, dance, dance.. no sweat! Quite the opposite really. I missed dancing. And I love dancing. Especially if it’s in Holiday Gym and Spa. Their hip hop dance sessions are always great. The trainer is owning with his brandish moves. And the dance routine, excellent. Not only that, your dance mates are pretty as well. You bet, they’re all pretty. That’s why I keep on returning there. So much for the advertisement, er.. Holiday Spa should pay for me about this you know. Ehem, back to topic.. As I’ve said, I attended the hip hop session last Wednesday for my legs’ stress test. My leg didn’t wobble fortunately though. It was really fun although some mates were not present. I just wonder where Nixie could have been. Earth calling Nix.. earth calling Nix.. Where are you, we’re really having fun here you know.. Hehehe..
Then came the cool down. I just thought the cool down was just the same as before but life has its own way on cheering you up. The music was Waka waka, FIFA 2010′s official theme. Man was it good for a cool down! Not only that, the steps were patterned to Capoeira and Afro dance styles. It felt like I wanted to dance all over again. The beat was addicting, and the moves were relatively high as well.
The Dance session was indeed a great escape from the frustrations brought by the never ending demands of my stressful job. And it was indeed nice meeting familiar faces again in the gym. Til next time then, when my schedule will not suck the life out of me.
HUSH PUPPIES
After the dance session, I felt like rewarding myself for making through all the strenuous demands of life had given me. That’s why I bought myself with a pair of this.. I mean, after all my manager had to say about me always wearing rubber shoes inside the office, I think it’s the right time to buy a pair of leather shoes for office use. It’s not that I don’t like wearing leather shoes, it’s just that my old one gave up and kept on smiling whenever I walk around.
Also, my new shoes have the vibram sole technology. Thus it is an all terrain shoe.. good for casual wear and durable enough to walk to a thousand mile on a rough road. Good for people like me who loves unplanned adventure.
The best part was that Hush Puppies had their sale so I was able to purchase this stuff at 20% off. Great catch huh? It’s a thousand bucks cheaper than the original price. I couldn’t be more happy. 
This week had been really a fun filled week after all. My feet are smiling now.
